schools always been boring, but never in all my life, has it been as boring as now, all day today we had to do english, but it gets worse... tomorrow its science, n friday its maths, all day!!! were havin these stupid sats booster days, i wudnt mind if they gave us sats booster lessons, but no, its a whole day, a whole day of maths english or science!!! i cant believe it!

i cant quite remember how but yesterday i somehow made friends with pipa, but shes still friends with bethanii n emily, which i dont mind, infact i dont blame her, i wudnt want to get involved in these petty arguements anyway, but coz shes friends with them, now she keeps ignoring me. i dont get it. i wud rather her not be my friend then her be my friend and ignore me, atleast then id know where i stand.

so yesteday was great! i woke up n there was so much snow! i got the day off school which was great, but i had to go into school today which really sucked. but then the snow got so bad they had to send us home early, which is why im able to write this now lol. anyway, even though im loving the snow, im getting soooo bored of winter! i want it to hurrey up n be summer, it feels like its been winter forever. anyway, im gonna go eat some soup now, warm myself up.

i havent wrote in a while, but i have quite a lot to write. so on sunday night my ex boyfriend ollie texts me saying he really needs to talk to me. so yesterday i talked to him, n he said he is genuenly sorry! im so happy he finnally apoligised. ive been single for 6 months now n i had got over him but i still really wanted that apoligy. i had alot to ask to, like why he dumped me. he said its coz we were gettin to close n he wasnt good at dealing with his emotions n he didnt want to hurt me. of corse he had already done that. so now we are friends, but still, i will never go back there, n i definatly wont trust him again, hes a liar n a show off, hes a nice guy sometimes but he has a hell of a lot of bad points too. so thats all really thats happened, exept saturday, which was fun. me and my aunt who i haven't seen for a while went shopping in oxford which was great, n when i got back to her house i found loads of toys i had from when i was a little kid, it took me straight down memory lane!!!

well today phill asked me out. phill is an austrailian boy who moved from down under last year. and i knew he fancied me i guess, but i said no. don't get me wrong he is a really nice guy, hes funny, hes sweet, n we have a lot in common like music taste n stuff, n i thought for a minute i was gonna say yes, but then i realized i dont actually fancy him. theres no spark, no chemistry, so i said no.

is it something about me that just makes me annoy my friends? i dont get it. 2 minutes into form when i got into school n i was already annoyin pipa coz i slagged off my ex n she started defendin him! ehich really hurt, but if i say that they'll just be like, you went out with him ages ago, get over it!! n at lunch they started ignorin me. i found out why at the end of lunch, its coz apparently i 'didnt spend enough time with them' i was with them for the whole of lunch! just coz i talk to other people other than them, n pipa got jelous coz i was talkin to aaron. me n him are really close friends, i think shes jelous of our friendship. she acts like she fancys him but she knows he loves her, but she cant coz theyve been out loads n every time shes treated him like crap n he keeps runnin back to her n i dont know why, so now im just moaning so much. again. its just i feel like i cat open my mouth without hurting somebody, im constantly fallin out with my friends for no reason, sometimes it makes me feel so alone.